New Year, New Life, New Budget^^

Tomorrow...



Is the last day of 2009...





The day after tomorrow...



A new year is coming...



Is it bring me a new life?

Is it bring me a new hope?





Anyway...





I just hope it bring me more & more happiness...





^_^v







HaPPy NeW yEaR!!

How do I continue my life?

After came back from my long holiday,

I felt that everything had been change...

Before this I hope that everything can be change,

but that all not the new life I want...

What can I do now?

I really felt that my life change to more and more worst...

So sad of that...

Feel myself is a loser of life...

How do I continue this life?!

Is it I think too negative way?

Although I had try to change my mind,

but that can't change my life totally...

So DOWN!

What the life for?

Always asking myself...
What my life for?
What I really need to do for my future?
Is I need to continue this kind of life for my whole life?


=.=

2010

27 days to year 2010...
I don't have any feeling for the new year coming...
This is because the time pass to fast...
I can't recall back what had been done in this year...

Year 2009...
Left 26 days...
Then the new year is come...

Is the new year come will bring me a new life?
But I think everything will be remain the same...
New year only to let us know, we are getting old...
To remind me, I got to hardworking to realize my dream~

So, is the time to wake up...
I can't always tell people 'I'm still young, no need to worry so much'...
Time won't wait for us...

=LONELY MOOD=

- LONELY MOOD -

My New Life???

After come back Sg, always thinking....
What is the new life did I really want?
What is the new job did I really suit?
Hmm....I DON KNOW~
After holiday, must will become LAZY...

But I think I'm just felt scared to face the new life that I have to face..
Knowing the new colleagues, learning the new works...and etc...


I'm always wish I can be like WATER^^
This because water can be easier fix to anyplace in anytime.
Just like human can to easy to get into to new life and new environment.

I'm just wish myself can be like that.


Wish I can have a nice job~
All The Best~

Last day of my HoliDay~

Going back Sg tomolo...
woow! had my long holiday for 1 month d...
nw so 'she bu de' go back le...
actually ord tired of this holiday le...but i don noe what really make myself feel so 'she bu de'...
hmm....

anyway...I had a g00d & nice holiday in this period^^

sister's wedding, my 21st b'day...& many more....

好久没来这了~

已经有一段时间没上来这了。。今天闲着没事就上来。。我把我的layout换了。。现在的主题是海洋世界^^
在这段时间里发生了很多事情吧。。但我就是不懂要怎样写，所以就没上来写了。。。

从工作到感情，都让我很累。。喘不过气来。。。我把现在这份工作辞了，希望下一份工作会更好吧！！
辞职后就要回古晋了，原本的四天假就将要拉长咯。。。直到我休息够吧。。过后就要开始我的新生活了~~
真希望一切都顺顺利利的。。加油^^

感情方面呢，就不想再说了。。但我也已做了决定，这决定我相信是对的吧。。因为酱让我比较快乐点。。。

这个月大姐就要嫁人啦~真替她高兴！希望她幸福快乐~
但别忘了，我们都是永远的姐妹哦~~

很累

我过得很累。。
面对每天要面对的人。。真的好累好痛苦。。。
为什么就没有人可以了解我。。。。





好想离开这里。。。

彷徨无助

感觉自己就站在十字路口中间，
但又发觉其实自己不是很惨的。。。



我该怎样？？

growing up^^

Originally I only then discovered that once we are growing up, once we aren't a children, we need to walk along ourself...No matter what we doing, we can't depend to anyone. Although your family, or the friends who know you so long time...Because the road are our own, we can't follow others people road and do whatever others people doing...

Just because of this, I felt very scare...Scare of lonely, scare of feeling helpless & etc.....What I can do is only be strong, be confidence to find my own road...to walk it myself...I can't blame to anyone who din't walk with me who din't help me, this because everyone is selfish...

Sometimes feel so desperation of what have happened around...What is worth is from the most own person, this most hurt to me...To avoid myself getting more & more hurt, what I have do is only maintains the distance to everyone...So that i won't be easier feel sad..But once choose to maintains our distance, we are being doomed to be alone..

So now, I'M ALONE...

Blessing for me...TQ!

=.= _tze_10:52am

bad news=_=

heard 1 bad news yesterday..


Aaron's son was pass away after 1 day born....
I feel so sad & that make my mind blank whole afternoon after i get the news...
I really cant accept why God want to treat him like that...
Since his wife pregnant, he is so so happy and always tell everyone he gonna be father...
Why God only give him jz happy for that 9 months only?
Why just let the baby come to the world just for few days then take him back??



:'( _tze_09:46am

my life~

who i live for??

what i live for??

what should i do??

should i continue this kind of life??

should i trying hard to change this all things??

can i?

should i?

I DON KNOW!!!

=( _tze_ 14:55

h0pinG have A NEW LIFE~

thinking of so much things recently...
after come back here from my kuching holiday,
feeling more & more tired of this job...


i don't know what really i want,
i don't know what really i should do,
i also don't know what LIFE i really wish to have...



but what i know is ~






I DISLIKE MY LIFE NOW!!











=( _tze_05:55am

c0me bAck t0 s'p0re...

back here is already 2 days...




still.....







no MOOD=.=










=( _tze_17:01

tired~~

back my hometown tomorrow...
normally i should be very happy de...
but is truth that i very happy...


but feel a bit not so weel...

=_=


worry back home will get sick...


is better take more rest today...



but last night very early sleep then today still will not well..



haiz~~



hope that will get well soon..




=( _tze_08:39am

miSSing hOmetOwn~

going back my hometown next week...

is happy...

because....

can be on leave...

no need to work....

can be relax...

can meet my family...

can meet my best friendss...

haha....

waiting for the coming of the day...

=) _tze_09:38am

ZicRa niGht^_^ (07/03/2009)

g0ing to Zicra with colleague..

hmm...

a quiet nice night...

relax..

enjoy...

and...

a little drunk*_*

=) _tze_12:30pm

iMpuLsivE

yesterday,

done an impulsive decision...

hmm...

going to take lunch with ting at home downstair...

after that we have window shopping there...

and then...

we saw the new LG ice-cream handphone..

that handphone have a sweet colour & nice LED lighting...

after take our look of the phone,

we just make our impulsive decision...

BUY IT!!

haha...

actually i have don't think want to buy a new handphone...

but maybe recently is too tired & stressful of the work,

so i just decide to get buy a thing to cheer up myself...

is this a reason for myself??

hAhA....

anywhere,

i like the my new ice-cream handphone so much...

i get my money from my coin saving

to change to this sweet ice-cream handphone=)

=D _tze_12:40pm

想开点？

这一却到底是怎么了？！？！

今天真是过的超累。。。
工作上种种难搞的事，过得好辛苦=（

一直忍着，叫自己想开点，看开点。。。
到最后，忍得好辛苦好辛苦。。。





眼泪还是掉了下来。。。

想想自己是为了什么让自己那么辛苦。。。

为了那小小的薪水吗？



真的很不懂。。。


好想辞职不干了。。。

但在这种经济 ，哪能说不干就不干呢。。。



在走路回家路上，又哭了。。。
忍着让眼泪不掉下来真的很辛苦。。。

一直再去回想什么事情让我那么不高兴。。。
一直往好的地方想，让自己好过点，快乐点。。。。


希望这一却赶快结束。。



=(_tze_07:42pm

rAinbOw~~

saw rainbow yesterday on my way to home after work..

that is big & very nice...

long time din't see rainbow le..

silly me still make some wish from that..hihi..

hOpe my wiSh wilL cOme trUe=)

=D _tze_12:45pm

tirEd =@=

tired...

tired...

tired of the life!

tired of the job!!!!!

23 days more.....

I WAN GO BACK HOMETOWN!

I DON WANT TO STAY HERE!!!

=( _tze_10:37am

hOpe tHis cAn bE cOntinuE....

have a quite busy work last week,

hopefully this week also can be the same..

busy life can make me feel the life more meaningful=)

=0 _tze_08:04am

fUtUrE?!?!

I can't see the ROAD infront
I don't know how to continue WALK














=(_tze_13:55pm

lOnelY gAl=_=

i'm feeling more & more lonely recently=_=''

=(_tze_11:24

shAd0w Of 2008

it's starting of february 2009 now
i had thking wat i had done on 2008?


i thk nw is a bit late to review^-^
but is still nt too late ba...




*wOrk*
from a receptionist become to my boss PA
jz be the PA about 1 month then change again my position
change to a sales co-ordinator at the new company by my boss
staying tis position about 4 months ord
it's nt a nice position tat i like
need to d0 & thk all the thg for the company
i don noe whether i will continue tis job for hw long time
but wat can i say is----
I DON'T LIKE THE JOB NOW! (coz is too too too boring office!)
.....but i had no choice=_=''


*family*
i thk wif my family relationship is being more close than before ba..
but i'm too miss my home at my hometown coz after cny for 2008, i had din back home for so long time le=_=
now is waiting for the coming of March coz i'm going to back my hometown =D


*friends*
my fren is getting less & less...
y will tis happened?
had a lot of reason...
the best best fren oso become no contact with..
felt so dissapointed of tat..
i jz hope tat we will be like b4..
like the frenship which we had at 5 or 6 years b4...
i don like nw! i felt so so lonely@~@ i really don like my situation now...


*rElatiOnshiP*
although tat i have few choices
but when i thk i will choose which i wan
i get to noe he is lie to me
lucky i had not make my last desicion for tat
if nt i will really hurt so much tat time
for now, i don wan to thk so much on tis
everythg jz depend to GOD


*stUdiEs*
i'm pass on my costing & management exam=D
it's mean - I CAN GET DOUBLE DIPLOMA!
it's great
but for now, diploma is a common thing
wat need now is degree
but i don thk wanna to continue my studies
mayb coz of money or lazy
but i'm thking to learn of others thing
such as nail art or make up
tis is wat i'm interesting wif=)





many things happened in 2008.
there are good & bad
however, tat's one part of my life, i accept its.

happy and sad=)=(
the diffrence is the mouth's shape

am i still keep dreaming
one day, i will becoming...
or
one day, i will becoming...


2008, i had felt more sad than happiness
but i'm thankful that i'm grown up after that

Actually, WHAT AM I? WHO AM I?


I am still searching my true identity

time will telling the answer


that's what i want now


CHEER UP=D



_tze_10:14

hAppY cAp gOh mEh!

finally come to the end of the cny

tis year i had no mood of cny coz i din back to kch for celebrate

i have go to kl wif my family

tat is a great trip=)

last sat,
jz having our company d&d
i felt tat i still have some LUCK
coz i get a prize from the lucky draw
and oso from the lucky draw of the staff
getting the dvd player & cash money SGD 188
yeah!!

hope my LUCK will continue on this whole years=D






=)_tze_09:13

nEw yEar! nEw tArgEt!!

tomolo going to kl..yeah!!


i have my new TARGET f0r this year!

hmm.....








HUI TZE...JIA YOU!!!!!!











=) _TZE_11:35am

hAppy lUnAr nEw YeAr!!

3 more dayssssss...................

gonna to meet my family at kl...

yeahooooooooo...........

=D _tze_07:50am

siCk =_=

just getting well from sick..
i'm mc 2 days before...
stay at home sleep & sleep & sleep...
gonaa become pig oready...haha
but really very tired..

fever + flu + cough =_=

very hate myself y oways so easily getting sick...

hmm..

....
i need to have more exercise so that i won't oways so easy get sick..

...
...

...

jia you jia you...gO! Go! GOO!!!!

=(_tze_12:56pm

I gEt mY nEw b0Ots...

going to jb for shopping yesterday...

yeah...at the 1st we are going to Holiday Plaza to shop but there are ntg

for us to shop there..jz try 1 dress but din buy it..hihi...

im trying the black dress..

we jz have our lunch at Kowloon Char Chan Teng..

my nice drink..yummy..

after tat we jz go to City Sqaure..

finally, i found my boots there..hihi...

my new black boots..

then i oso bought a body glove bag...

tis bag is for me to use for travel use..haha...

my new white body glove bag...

bought le bag,

nw waiting the coming of cny..haha...

=)_tze_17:03